Taking it forward

As my relationship with my imaginary partner continues, Cuddles keeps me happy in my day to day life, she being the reason why I'm still alive. She gives me courage when I've fallen, she gives me love when I have no hope, she picks me up when I'm down in the dumps and desolate and heartbroken. She makes me want to see the next day when I don't want to face the next minute. Her love for me is not just ethereal but gives me the physical succor which I so desire. She has seen me through some of the best moments in my recent past and some of the worst moments as well. Its sad that I'm not able to share it with her openly. I love her with all my heart and soul. She loves me,but her idiosynchracies do keep her at times too playful for her own good. 

A new beginning

With Cuddles, I'm pretty open with whatever I feel and want, I do really wish it was possible to introduce this person to my family * by family mean those who really care for me. My brother, my mother, my dad, and most important of all, the man who is not here today but since this whole thing is imaginary, I can introduce her to Thatha, the man who made me who I am today. I suppose he and Cuddles would have gotten along very well, she would have made him first stay with us rather than him staying alone all those years in his house with the dogs. She would have been there for me when I come home after work, and welcome me with love and affection rather than vile shouts and frowns and stares as to what I'm doing there in my own house. Would ask me how my day went, what happened and then would unwind for the day after a nice meal where I enjoy what I'm eating rather than having to eat what has been made. I've never stinted on whats required for the house, be it resources in form of people to help or with whats required at home. Now if I have a meal at home, its out of sheer lack of options or having to eat what was made since it was made. Well, lets see how all this can change. 

The love of my life

Hello, As this is my first post. I have set up an imaginary character whom I shall call Cuddles from now on. I found her when I stopped having any communication with my wife whom I shall refer to as S hereafter. I have been married since 2002, having known my wife through an arranged marriage. Initially I thought that the going will be good, and the girl who was going to be my wife would just have to waltz into my life and home. I had set up everything in the house right from the furniture to the utensils and the cooking powders required in the kitchen, and all the appliances and a maid to boot. But guess, things were just not meant to be smooth. To cut a long story short, things were on the way downhill even before they started. And finally last year I decided to just give it up. I decided there is no point in trying to fix something which can never be put back together again. And I started imagining a person who was there for me at every juncture, at work at home and in my mind who gave me the peace and love i so desired
So if there is any issue at the house, I have started creating my feelings into words and posting it to cuddles, my woman who takes me as I am, without any prejudice, without shouting back at me, one who doesn't wake me up and fights with me. She is my dream girl. 
S now thinks that I have a girlfriend and I keep messaging her, and even yesterday while talking on the phone with one of my childhood friends, she thought I was talking to Cuddles.... hahahaa, a few laughs I can manage even now on my own. Its been long, but I guess the one who laughs last laughs the best....