The love of my life

Hello, As this is my first post. I have set up an imaginary character whom I shall call Cuddles from now on. I found her when I stopped having any communication with my wife whom I shall refer to as S hereafter. I have been married since 2002, having known my wife through an arranged marriage. Initially I thought that the going will be good, and the girl who was going to be my wife would just have to waltz into my life and home. I had set up everything in the house right from the furniture to the utensils and the cooking powders required in the kitchen, and all the appliances and a maid to boot. But guess, things were just not meant to be smooth. To cut a long story short, things were on the way downhill even before they started. And finally last year I decided to just give it up. I decided there is no point in trying to fix something which can never be put back together again. And I started imagining a person who was there for me at every juncture, at work at home and in my mind who gave me the peace and love i so desired
So if there is any issue at the house, I have started creating my feelings into words and posting it to cuddles, my woman who takes me as I am, without any prejudice, without shouting back at me, one who doesn't wake me up and fights with me. She is my dream girl. 
S now thinks that I have a girlfriend and I keep messaging her, and even yesterday while talking on the phone with one of my childhood friends, she thought I was talking to Cuddles.... hahahaa, a few laughs I can manage even now on my own. Its been long, but I guess the one who laughs last laughs the best....